Wonderlust

Aquarius

I've been on an astrology kick today. Cold weather, hot drinks and food, toasty fire and reading about personalities a good recipe in my book! :)

The Amorous Nature

Aquarius Woman : This charming, funny, brainy, tantalizing woman doesn’t have to play games to fascinate a man. She plays herself. There is a special magnetism to Aquarius that some astrologers have called distant glamour. Like all the air signs (Gemini, Libra), she lives in a world of ideas and possesses a certain detached quality. Curiously, this attracts men who want to stir her emotions.

She is not aloof, cold, or removed from feeling, but warm, friendly, outgoing, concerned with others, a woman with a strong romantic streak. Romance for Aquarius is an idea, not a sweeping passion. In truth, she is wary of emotion, for it can be troublesome and tiresome. She is above that; she is able to deal rationally with life.

Aquarius female is subject to no man’s whim and follows no dictates but her own. She was a liberated woman before anyone ever heard of the women’s movement. This supremely independent woman cares little what the rest of the world think. Part of her attitude is reflected in her imaginative approach to sex. Here boudoir behavior is usually innovative and creative; she seeks novelty and diversion more than heavy breathing passion.

However unconventional her attitudes may be and however flirtatious she may seem, a man will have to convince her that she’s not simply his target for tonight. He cannot make the mistake of treating her as a sex object. She expects to be courted, and a man should not press matters to a conclusion until he knows more about her than her telephone number. Passion is not important to her; communication is. Aquarius sees a man as an individual first, and a bed partner second.

In marriage or a serious relationship she often finds it hard to give up herself. She is an unconventional person who lives most intensely in her mind. She’s too concerned with her projects, hobbies, interests, friends, so her love tends to be diffused. She has been accused of loving mankind rather than one particular man.

Once her passions are aroused and directed towards a specific man, however, she is loyal and devoted. When Aquarius makes a promise she stands by her word. After all, that is what honor and idealism are about and those are hallmarks of this sign.

Some say Aquarian woman is the perfect mate because she is easy to deal with — tolerant, slow to take offense, never jealous or unreasonable, never over-emotional or clinging. All she asks is for a man to respect her privacy and not stand in the way of her far reaching interests.

The quickest way to lose her is to try to hold her fast. What intrigues her is the hill beyond the unexplored horizon. She is never content to stay where she is. There’s too much out there waiting to be discovered. A man has to share her love of a challenge or he will soon be left behind. She will move on without a backward glance, a grand ship sailing on without an inkling of the tragedy in her wake.

-N

Cloudy day.

Tomorrow is going to be kind of busy. I've gotten so used to being at home, the idea of being in Austin all day with school stuff and car hunting doesn't sound that great. I just want to stay in and be with my family (my grandparents are here now, yay!) and do fun things. hehe

But, the show goes on. I'm just going to pick out a sharp, sassy outfit for tomorrow and take it one thing at a time.

<3

Wow!

I'm sitting here in my pjs trying to pacify my turbulent reproductive organs with ibprofen and a heating pad so I thought, hey, why not write a blog.

I've been spending the morning taking care of very boring odds and ends, had to add a class to get financial aid. (yuck!) Must get aid before car...need car for job...

And school, I'm not excited about it anymore. I used to be so passionate about it because it felt like part of my identity. But it just doesn't feel that way now...it feels like the part of me that was trying to prove I was good enough and needed to be something that people approved of. Maybe thats too harsh, but idk, its such a relief in my spirit to think of getting out of academia! Out of being a number, a letter, trying to be smart all the time.

I know where some of this anxiety comes from and I'm excited that I have the courage now to say this is NOT me, I do NOT like this, and I'm going to go figure out what I do like and who I really am. It feels wonderful, like life is fresh again, not like I'm walking through a routine that is boring and draining.

I have so many plans in my head and things I'm looking forward to...I feel like I'm becoming more authentic everyday.

-Nicole
xoxo

Down in Mexico

Inspiring, scary, beautiful, muddy, sexy...Mexico. It was an incredible trip! Nathan and I muddled through the week with our non existent Spanish, the people were very patient and kind.

I woke up at sunrise everyday, walked through the streets of quaint buildings and beautiful flowering trees then turned down a dirt road that took me into the tropical like forests. The road wandered along for 15 minutes before I made it to the building site.

And the building, it was life changing. I mean I knew that I "thought" I wanted to build a house...but now I KNOW I want to build a house. And I want to figure out how to do it now... not after grad school, after I get married, once I'm settled. Nope, live in the moment, makes plans in the now...its overwhelming in some ways but it feels like I'm about to fly. Like jumping off a cliff and starting to fly instead of lifting off the ground...scary, requires confidence and faith.

Gonna go have lunch with my Mama. love!

Sitting in Bush Intercontinental

Soon I'll be in Mexico....landing at 2:30. I can't believe its finally here!! I just remember sitting in the computer lab at UT, laboring over my miserable thesis, and thinking about Mexico. Thinking about being in the sand, building from mud, meeting other cobbers, trying the restaurants, watching the sunset over the Pacific ocean. Its like a dream. I'm so happy. I feel so free. :)

Here is the restaurant we will be eating at tonight.

Busy day...

Today is going to be a busy day! There's lots to do on getting the apartment set up for this weekend to move in, getting things ready for Mexico, making sure my classes are in order, continuing to look for a job, find a car...

But its all exciting, so I don't mind. It's nothing like finals week. Thank god!!

So I finished the detox diet. I'm so glad I did it, I feel much better and "lighter". Not really in a literal weight sense, but more just emotionally and mentally...and somewhat physically.

I can't believe that this time next week I'll be in Mexico! It's scary and thrilling...I've never been out of the country!