Home again home again....

One huge adventure is behind me. Now I'm home resting and playing with my family, it so nice to be here again! But I'm also waiting, waiting for the next thing. I'm thinking/planning that it will be graduate school, but it's not here yet and I really have nothing left to do. When I'm busy with school or work or something, when I'm right in the middle of it I tend to think "I just want a break!". I have a list of activities in my head that I would do if I had a "break", but when it comes down to it, breaks have their challenges too. Lack of structure and responsibility, without those things it can be pretty hard for me to get motivated!

I'm going to try to recognize that the things I was working on have come to an end and I'm not sure what I'll be working on in the future...but right now I need to sit and be calm and enjoy the things around me. :)

Winter Update

A lot has happened since I last updated. Some hard things, wonderful things, boring things and first time things!

1. Moved from Texas to Minneapolis, Minnesota.

2. Worked full time for Wells Fargo for 4 1/2 months.

3. Finished my undergraduate degree online.

4. Adopted a rescue dog and eventually had him put to sleep due to human and dog aggression. Worst experience.

5. Saw the season change from summer, to fall colors, to winter wonderland.

6. Got into graduate school at Hamline University for the Master's in Business Administration and Nonprofit Management dual degree program! Starting in January. :]

Wow, I'm sitting here in Caribou coffee waiting for Emily to finish class. Over the last year I have spent a lot of "in-between-time" here. Even though it's surrounded by a less than picturesque shopping mall and a busy small town street...I find it a very soulful and inspiring place. It's a place where I've made new plans and struggled with the responsibility of creating my own life. An in between place.

I constantly forget that even things that are well worth doing have to be started over and over again. When I first starting reading "Women who Run with the Wolves" I thought I would read it all the way through! But I'm still working on it a year and a half later. When I came back from the Vipassana retreat, I was convinced I would meditate two hours daily. I struggle to meditate an hour a month. Total. But that's the thing. I'm afraid to pick up the book, afraid to try to meditate because I might fail to incorporate it into my life again. I want to see each minute of meditation as "worth it" whether I make it a routine or if I forget to do it for weeks. The task of "forming a habit" is so intimidating that I fail to realize it's just one thing....then doing that one thing again and again....but for now it's still just one thing.

So, that is my thought at the moment. <3
-N