Thesis Hate

I hate this thing. As in "I'm almost in tears just looking at it" hate. Why is this making me so miserable? I want to quit so bad. So bad. But I've spent so much time on this, I know it will look good on my resume, and I don't want to disappoint my advisers. Well, actually I don't give a shit what my primary adviser thinks. She's a moody bitch and I'm tired of jumping through hoops for her. But the head of the honors program is a woman that I admire so very much. I worked for her in her home and I really consider her to be a role model in a lot of ways. I would hate to let her down.

But oh man, I'm getting such a violent reaction from working on this thing! It's like I'm running the gamut of emotions and they are all really really bad ones. I just feel like I don't know how to get the information I need and I don't want to look for it. I don't care at all about this project any more. I don't even know what I'm trying to say with it. Drought is bad for farmers, yea duh. Past that I feel like every thing I have is just random crap.

Uhhg, I've got to pull myself together