Staying in the moment...

I'm really struggling today. Studying for nutrition, finishing my thesis from last semester, finding a job, working on the BDP project, gah I don't want to be doing this! In my mind I know that all of my surroundings have nothing to do with my happiness, that I can be content regardless of any circumstances...but...

I have all these nice day dreams, I'd like to be working on my house out in the middle of a beautiful country. Days blending into each other marked by sunrises and sunsets, everyday waking up and working hard mixing mud and building walls, working in a huge garden and taking care of animals.

Or I imagine spending time with someone really cool that I've been getting to know lately. Going to restaurants, dancing, watching movies, talking, enjoying the winter...and then I remember that I am supposed to go to a BDP check-in for spring research projects. Ew!

It's just hard to stay motivated, but I'm hangin' in there. :]

-n