The good and the bad...
Woke up late for work today! It was so embarrising, but when I got to the Green's house they were just waking up and getting coffee, so I think it was fine. :)
I found out that the Liberal Arts department is giving me $200 to cover my research expenses! Which is really nice, cause I had already sort of budgeted the money and counted it as gone...so it feels like I'm just getting some free money. yayy!
I'm so so so ready to move into an apartment. Community living is getting to me, bad. Maybe its just the community. I really think that co-op living is a great opportunity and I'm so glad it exists! But I've spent two and a half years in co-ops and I'm starting to see only the negatives. I think it's time for me to move onto an environment that allows me a little more independence and privacy. I know there are lots of things I will miss about it though, once I'm gone...
I'm also excited about throwing some kick ass parties at my own place. And inviting only the people I want to see.(there's always so so many people that just show up to things when you live in a coop! People think every event is an open invitation. uhg)
So, there's my co-op rant. Oh! Not to mention a lot of people helping themselves to any food item, makeup item, expendible resource they feel like! Interesting how those people are never the ones offering to share their stuff.....hmmm...
Ok, I really am done. This is just too easy. hehehe Sometimes you just gotta get it out!
I'm feeling really good lately, I went and bought a cute little dress and some new sexy undies. I didn't realize how much I beat myself up about wanting to look nice! I'm just so paranoid about being superficial sometimes, but man it feels good to look good sometimes. :P Ana always helps me so much, just when I feel like I'm stuck being a certain way, she reminds me I can change! It's so simple, but so easy to forget.
Time to get shit done, love love love! <3
posted by nicole_rc at
5:09 PM
3 Comments:
lovely friend!!
you know i totally understand about the whole coop ranting..of course i am totally happy about my new single room..but i think the coop environment is not my ideal one either...i realized today that almost every interaction in the house is basically small talk...i mean this could just be for me..even tho i haaate small talk..yet every time some person passes me in the hallway i feel compelled to say hi..or if some acquaintances are in the commons i feel obligated to respond to their questions...how was your day..how is school?...it's not only draining but i also feel like those questions lose their significance when people that don't truly care for your response ask them...those questions are the most common yet important or rather relevant questions for our daily lives as college students...they shouldn't become questions that we try to avoid and start to hate because so many random people ask them...hope this is making some sense at least...
as for you being superficial...you shouldn't try to be original or try not to be superficial...just carry out your actions and express your thoughts and that will prevent you from ever being superficial because they are you..the only nicole clonts that exists...and anyway i have to most meaningful conversations with you..which means the most to me in the world...and it could never happen with someone that i thought was the least bit superficial...
i love you!
October 20, 2009 at 9:30 PM
*hugs* Ditto on the co-op stuff... I don't know how you do it with a double room and on the hall that you are on. I feel like my room is too busy/loud and mine is waaay more reclusive than yours!
It's going to be so fun living in an apartment with you! Hell yea we are gonna throw some kick-ass parties!!! And you will have a room of your own to decorate! <3
I love you so much, and I'm so glad you are starting to feel like you can make yourself look good without being superficial- its fun!
October 22, 2009 at 2:23 PM
Yay! Gotta love that free money! Cause I mean you just gotta tell 'em... you aint gonna pay...
Well, I am glad you are moving out of there then. You have been in coops for long enough it sounds like.
I don't think you are superficial at all except maybe when you think you are to fat. But,I know that usually everyone has at least one superficial thing that is hard to let go of and bothers them a lot :[ I think it can be very nice to take care of yourslef though :]
I love you so much! Hope I see you soon <333
October 22, 2009 at 8:31 PM
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